Stories
Webster’s defines story as the telling of a happening or connected series of happenings, whether true or fictitious.
I have my own definition. A story is any recollection/telling, mental or verbal, of an event. Even true stories are ‘made up’ because they are never related in the ‘moment to moment’ experience. 5 people will relate an event from their own perspective.
My stories are all made up, just as yours are. We create, accept and choose to believe them as truth or not.
My stories follow.
the Vessel.
it holds a life timeof slowly fadingbits of pieces,the vesselnamedFred.f
Fake News, for sure.
Fake News, for sure.Donald Trump has achieved morethan using the term ‘fake news’.For those that hear,he has uncloakedthe recorded historyof these U.S. of America.What’s a better termthan ‘fake news’,to shed lighton the self-deception,home of the brave,land of the...
just thinking Out Loud.
Just thinking out loud.President elect Biden’s day,Wednesday, January 20thhas been curtailedby Covid 19and a possible, plannedtroop buildup to keepfolks away fromWashington.The threat of violencein each state capitolhas created fearin many of us.Celebrating a new...
“We Americans.”
“We Americans.”Europeans say “I am . . . “Portuguese American”,Norwegian American”,Hungarian American”,Rumanian American”,Ukrainian American”,Albanian American”,Swedish American,Austrian American”,Belgium American”German American”Bosnian American”,Spanish...
the Change
the ChangeChange is inevitable,even as it appearsto stand still.We are living in an amazing time of phenomenal change.It will determine the birth of a new humanity and deathof the one whose time has come.Seedlings upheave the resistant soil,before the fruit of their...
a New Way of Seeing.
a New Way of Seeing.Change is constant,and fear of losscannot stopit.manhumanwomanmalefemalemenwomenMan Male Menmay resist change,but fear cannot stop it.fJanuary 12, 2021
Change
ChangeI change the worldby changing my self,quickly or slowlyone breathat a time.Try itnow.fJanuary 12, 2021
Let Go
Let goLet GodLet a lifeof lovingbe the wayof Now living.*It just appeared,so I decidedto share ithere &now.fJanuary 11, 2021
Please sing . . .
Please singindoors or out,the following tune,any way you want to,at the top of your lungs .OldI’m oldold as the mountainold as the seaold as the rivergoin’ be washin’ over meThere ain’t no startThere ain’t no endThere ain’t no comin' back againI’m old as the...
hey You,
hey You,ain’t lifejust fullof life ? fJanuary 9, 2021
Now, let’s sit and watch.
Nowlet’s sitand watch.All I hear today (these 2 days after)the Capitol Bldg. raid is Trump did thisTrump caused thatTrump Trump TrumpGet rid of racist TrumpI hear it from Black folksI hear it from White folksI hear out from all the folksthat don't support Mr. Trump.It...
Honestly,
Honestly, I am angry,but not surprisedby the Capitol Bldg.invasion by white folks.I cannot believemany people of colorliving in our demoncracy are shocked by the images.I am listening to NPRhosts and guests chatting,but not about the foundation of systemic N. American...
“Storm the White House.”
"Storm the White House."NowI sit hereimagininghow our media,both left and rightwould be portraying 1000’s of Black protesterscrashing into the White House.Reviewing our North Americanracist history tells me there’d beBlack bodies strewn all over the W.H.grounds, with...
the Visitor
the VisitorThere is comfortin knowingthat my TOD documentis now up to dateand signed.[What’s the hurry?]My very next visitormay be Covid-19.TOD, Transfer on Death.fJanuary 2, 2021
I Need Your Love.
I Need Your Love.Brothers Love ?Mothers Love ?Fathers Love ?Sisters Love ?Others Love ?No Dear One,Your Love in herein life in deathin joy in tearsin here thereeverywherewith love,all lovein love.fJanuary 1, 2021
a Rambling Ramble
This day,Christmas DaydTrump has not signedthe new Pandemic Relief Bill.He is losing his center stagevocal, worshiping, aggrandizing,stroking his humongous ego, audience.He doesn’t want his worshipersto drop their allegiances,so he will hesitatinglysign the bill.He is...
Pleasure Pain Life & Love
Pleasure PainLife & LoveWe seek the oneAvoid the otherGo, look in the mirror. How did you arrive?Mother feels painthen pleasurewith new lifein her armsheld close.a seed bursts fortha baby pushes outa miracle of lifea spirit of loveDo not seek pleasureDo not avoid...
the Peacock and the Partridge.
the Peacock and the Partridge.two birds with feathers,but not of a feather. one struts about squawking,displaying its brilliant plumage.the other is served on a platter,with its plumage plucked.one says ‘look at mebut do not touch’the other says ‘be nourishedby my...
just maybe
just maybegrass, flowers, treeshornets and beesfires, birth, lifeand passingwere herebeforeandwill behere afterthoughts andwords and lovewill carry on without being recordedby any animal speciesjust maybefDecember 22, 20209
Privilege!
Privilege! I also know privilegein a world of lightskin is best skinBUTnot light enough skin means I am still tailedby workers at Walmartand at Home Depot,regardless of the manyvisits and cash spent there.All that to sayprivilege is not onlyreserved for white...
The 4 S’s
The 4 S’sStupidity & SelfishnessSagacity & SelflessnessA] Stupidity; behavior that shows a lack of good sense or judgement.B] Sagacity; acuteness of mental acuity and soundness of judgementC] Selfishness; concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself OR...
Giving thanks.
Giving thanks.I wish you allthe joy this day can really bring,when I am thankfulthat each breath is lifeconnecting me with love.fNovember 26, 2020
It takes 2 to Tango.
It takes 2 to Tango.Some dancers movein smooth syncopation.Some dancers moveas two, and not as one.Some dancers movein fear across the floor.Most dancers are ableto improve with guidance.Regrettably, we may preferto stay in safe havenswith others like...
Thinking out loud.
Just listened to Orwell’s Animal Farm on Audible.It appears our human dilemma is constant.We have Napoleons, Squealers and Snowballs, and we all know a Boxer, the hard worker and Napoleon follower. When has this country ever been by and for ALL the people? Some say it...
The Elephant
The elephantNo one is talking aboutthe elephant in the room.The very near possibilityof a POC female President sleeping in the U.S. White HouseGeez, there I am future tripping again. .POC: Person of ColorfNovember 1, 2020
Inner voices
Inner voices the BIG voice says,‘We are all in the same boat’.the LITTLE voice says,‘There’s my boat and your boat, and my boat is better’.‘I have a foot in each boat, making it difficult to find balance.’fOctober 30, 2020
Choosing Sides (out loud).
Choosing Sides (out loud).Mitch has packed the courts with Conservative appointees, while disregarding the pandemic. Regrettably, I do not believe Biden has the will to play hardball with the Wrong Wing of this society. Obama tried compromise. What did that get him or...
Thinking out loud
Thinking out loudI formally decline any invitation to enjoy a happy gatheringwith your family during thenext Native Day feast.OK, OK, I know we are biting our nails (toes and fingers) downto the bloodied flesh,hoping we haven’tinhaled a Covid19 exhale.Plus,the burning...
baggage carriers.
baggage carriers.we all are,aren't we?it is easier to seeothers carry it than to see minebeing lugged along.when mind is seenand related withair is fresherand love smilesoutloudfOctober 24, 2019
What’s in it for me?
What's in it for me?me me meIf I don't care for mewho will?me me meme me meothers make a differenceusfeel the difference in a wordme us me me me usWhen you feel ityou know the power.Words.What's in itfor us?fOctober 22, 2020
an Out Loud View
an Out Loud ViewOctober 16. 2020Trump, Kurds, Turkey, Syria, Iraq, ISIS, Russia, Europe, the Middle East and the U.S. of A.The Kurds don't own or control a recognized land mass. In 1925 Kurdistan was divided up between Iran, Iraq, Turkey and Syria. The Kurds live in...
fear.
fear.a dark doom gloomrising descendingenveloping.“This too shall pass”,is not beinghere now.fear.faddendum.presently I feel the first 8words.*thesehours laterare a testament that change continuesno matter what mind says.with helpfrom others,my day endedwith me...
the COVID sprinkler.
the COVID sprinkler.I find it kind of . . ., no,more than interestingthat our President gave a pep talk to flag wavingcolored folk wearing MAGA caps.Colored means black brown and otherfolk.The same homelessjobless prison bound COVID dying communities being shot jailed...
the Heart of Hearts
the Heart of HeartsIt takes courage to listen, hear and respond to our personal highest callings, when the hypnotic power of media, tradition and the baaing masses responding to the bleating of pious leaders, pull us into darkness.We give military personnel Purple...
a Cancer, unnamed.
a Cancer, unnamed.You sayI hate your burninglooting and riotingin our inner cities.Let us talk moreI sayMLK talked and talkedand gave us a dreamwe all recite in part.It got us a day off.I saytalk has its time and place,but resistance to changehas festered since...
You wanna be love-d?
You wanna be love-d?2 steps.1st) No if when but.2nd) Love. Simply love.fFebruary, 2015
“Wolf” boy.
“Wolf” boy.The boy cried “Wolf”every day.One day the boy cries,"I am dying.”Some say,“Let’s save the boy".Some say,“Die already Wolf boy".”Some say,“Change is the constant".What do you say?Reflections on our current President.fOctober 2, 2020
I DON’T WANT
I DON’T WANTAdding fuel toI DON’T WANTcreatesI DON’T WANTwaves.When many of us fuelI DON’T WANT,what we getis what we see.I DON’T WANTtidal waves.fOctober 1, 2020
There I was,
There I was, confidently losing weight.Today, the scale revealed a 10 pounds gain.That mind is a world-class character, to befriend.fSeptember 20, 2020
Visual vanity
Visual vanitythat this COVID deathwill display a mouth fullof life-like crowns,not gapshaving waited in linefor a best impression.f9/29/20
Belief.
Belief.this heartsqueezed lemon-dryby my thoughtthat the causeis you.f 9/29/20
Just watched
Just watched'the social dilemma’ on Netflix,and realize how addicted I am,and manipulated by social media.The question is,now that I know this,will I delete it from my life?I think not.We can alwaysrationalize addictions.f9/28/20
You want it?
You want it?You got itYou got it?Share itYou need it?Receive itLovef9/17/19
a Living Paradise
a Living ParadiseParadise is being conscious of each breath in out in communion with all existence. More still, paradise is engagingwith energetic flow behind appearance. Paradise includes all aspects of life and death and storms and calm and sex and gender and butter...
I benefit from white privilege.
I benefit from white privilege,not because I am white,but I am light, or was,as gravity and emotiondim my appearancedown to the roots. In NYC, folks thought I was Puerto Rican.In India, folks thoughtI was Indian.One doctor in this area told his dictaphoneI was white,...
Friends and others.
Friends and others.I heard the news about RBG last evening, once, and turned the radio off. The challenge for me will be to listen loud, hear loud and love loud, from inside out, and not to tune in to the incessant Left vs. Right conversations. The challenge for me...
Love Now
During the Covid,let's not add to hysteria.Sit,Walk,Stand, Breathe.ConstantChange is Love Now.f9/18/20
I hear
I hear“Never forget 9/11”.1619 was erasedas thoroughlyas possible.Why forget one,and not the other?f9/13/20
Good Friends
Good FriendsWe left Vietnam,with our friendshanging from choppers.We're leaving Syria,with our friendshanging from trees.Smokey the Bear says,'Always leave your friends,with a loving heart',or something like that.'Trees are our friends too.'f9/13/2018
Talking out loud.
Talking out loud.Ducks say quack quack quack.Dogs say woof woof woof.We go yack yack yack.Is there a difference?Ducks and Dogs can relatewith most every mate.We study books and the lawand still can't communicate.When ducks and dogs get cross,they duke it out to be...
3 Belles
3 bellesEvening tides,a dark seascapeon a moonless night.A foot in time,one still behind,not here, not there.Eat your heart out.If no light pours through,do it again.f8/25/2020
Now AM I
and the Gospel saysforget the lawslive life now all i amis loveherenowamIf
a Day 1 story.
a Day 1 story.I been pulled over by copsmostly black and whiteN0. mostly white.cops are symptoms white vs. colors, symptomsblack shootings are symptomsthe Truth isColumbus was out to enrichhis personal fortune.Lincoln didn't give a damnabout a bunch of slaves."Keep...
a Rain Bow heart
aRain BowheartishereNowf
a Crumbling house
a Crumbling house is scary.What if you look aroundand all you see iscrumbling,period.Whatnow?f
“Today you are now free.”
"Today, you are now free."Painting the street yellowain't gonna do much'bout black crimeon black folk.That paint is gonna be goneand the street will just befull of more potholesand hot verbal air,and black folk will still live and die in communities and our...
Summer: 2022
Summer: 2022What's your summergoing to be like?Oh, I'm going to stay in. I'm not so young anymore,can't afford that COVID shot,and my Insurance won't cover it.Well, at $800 a shot,and you need all three,not many of us can affordthat, with no 100% guaranteethat a...
the Real story!
the Real story!Isn't that what we all want?"I want the Real story"makes me laugh.Stories are afterthe fact of life.Repeat that?Stories are afterthe fact of life.You get that?Every thing thoughtis an after the factmade up story.Now to nowis a story.Nowis all...
One way of seeing.
One way of seeing.Who cares?Who really cares?42% of deathsare our elderly folks,potential seeds of wisdom.Black and brown peoplesuffer most fromCovid-19.I am not old,black or brown,so who really cares?Less old, black and brownwill allow our economyto be great...
Stinkin’ thinkin’.
Stinkin’ thinkin’.“Run over to Charlie’sand ask him to give ussome hot dogs, right now."What did you say?"I gotta repeat myself? This is the fourth of July. We supposed to have hot dogs.""You must have lost your freakin' mind. The shock of them taking the houseand...
I wanna see
I wanna seeI wanna see luv uck shonYeah sureI made it upand here is the drift.Luv is a sad happy facemade up any way you want.Luv invites change and givesoptions to follow or not.Luv is a hurricane,the gale forcefeminine energy.Luv is presenceand presents.Luv is hot...
“Help! . . . “
"Help! I've fallen and I can't get up."When I relive an affirmationmany thousands of times,will it become a seedthat fuels my life?Just a thought.f
Eat cha heart out.
Eat cha heart out.If you are aroundto tell the tale,you know heartis not the centerof a living life.I have to ask,then what is?f
an Ordinary Day
an Ordinary Day.To white folks,aboutan Ordinary Day.They sayGeorge diedon an ordinary day.I saywe all dieon an ordinary day.The difference isyou will die in an ordinary way.George Floydis/was a black manin the U.S. of A.f
a Happy Heart
a Happy Heart You know folks, I have left Vietnam but it has never left me. Imagine boys to men given guns to kill just because . . . I am 21 and want to feel what it feels liketo feel. * Four guns in our battery. Two 8 inches and Two 175's. Our 175 mm gun is named...
a Book Kid.
a Book Kid.We steal some cheap flashlights. I am under the tented cover at night,reading a thrilling, historical Russian novel. It is Sholokhov's, 'The Don Flows Home to the Sea'. The Reds and the Whites. His stories charge,flow are sad joy full picturesque scenes.I...
Logic
LogicYou have owned a car for several years,and it has its pluses and minuses,but generally it runs for you.Along comes a person who then says,"I have a much better car for you,and am passing a law that willmake your car illegal to own".Some of us will want to knowhow...
our Chief Commander
Our Chief Commander talks non-sense.His talks are all about them and us.I said our, but we are his them.His us only includes them,that want N. Americato be great again.f
Birds and Bells
Birds and Bells.The blue birds sing.I imagine the soundsThe door bells ring.I'm hearing are birdsand bells and other things,The blue birds sing.but my psychiatrist saysthe bells and birdsThe door bells ring.and constant ringingand singing in my headThe blue birds...
a Secretly Recorded Conversation
View Post a Secretly Recorded conversation.Donald: Bill, we gotta’ get past this mandemic.Bill: Pandemic, sir.Donald: How we gonna’ do it?Bill: Sir, the fastest way is through herd immunity.Donald: Herd what?Bill: Immunity! When more than enough people get sick, the...
a Rant!
a Rant!A short while ago, I observed a discussion about Aunt Jemima, the woman on the syrup and pancake label. I found the different statements and positions about her, worth a few notes. Nature is not either/or, one or the other. Nature IS. Simple as that. IS.Action...
One Play, in 2 Acts
One Play,in 2 Acts.1.We teach your kidsour history of conquest.Many years laterthe planted seedsof shame and blamelive in your daily lives.Poverty is a state of mind delivered to all you colors.Subjugation and dominationhave ruled your defiant roosts,since we landed...
now.
Where do birdsgo?No whereto go.Heretodaytomorrowyesterdaynow.f
“You can’t catch me.”
"You can't catch me", and much more.It's winter,an early morningSaturdayin NYC.We are down stairsplaying Tagin the new snow,that fell last night.He shouts"You can't catch me"and is running fastto the safe spot.Determinedto tag him,I close my eyesin a burst of speedrun...
Fill in the blanks.
Fill in the blanks.Mother, Austrian Polish Jewsent to Boston,all her family die in Auschwitz.Mother meets father, black and Native Indian, he says,living in Harlem.Mother and father have a child, me,Born in Sydenham Hospital,Bronx, New York.Father and mother...
I hear. I say.
I hear. I say.I hearTrump TrumpTrump TrumpTrump is thatTrump is thisTrump good"Trump bad.I sayTrump followsin the footstepsof his founding father.f 4Beth Davis, DeAnna Woolston and 2 others
Convenient in action .
Convenient in action.When the current activities,marching talking toppling speaking writing, haverun their course,what then?Will services be based on need?Will schools be equally funded?Will banks start giving loans?Will equal pay be made law?Will policing be color...
an Interesting Time
An interesting time in the human timeline.Covid-19 has been dealt with in a hodgepodge manner in the world, but especially so in the U.S. We may experience serious consequences on the back end. All we can do now is useappropriate PPE , keep our fingers crossed and...
FB asks, What’s on your mind?
FB asks,What's on your mind?White and Blackin North America.Mr. George Floyd is not a martyr.Just another Black man in N. America.He might have been a murderer, a father,or a brain surgeon, but to some, Black is bad,no matter what the person's standing in N....
TheNervousBreakdown.com
THENERVOUSBREAKDOWN.COM #AmplifyBlackPoetry: Poems from Fred Nicholson In solidarity with Black Lives Matter, TNB Poetry has created this space for BIPOC voices to shine. We will be publishing work by Black poets daily.
a White Friend
a White friend was expressing how upset he wasby the burning and looting and random violencebeing displayed by the thugs fighting our police.He noted that calm protests and talking is best.I gave his comments consideration and then said,when has talking peace and...
a Loose Ramble
a Loose Ramble.White folks saystop blaming slaveryfor your looting and burninglocal businesses to the ground.Black folks all knowfrom day one chainedflogged branded rapedbeaten to death just because,complying with youwould build your wealthand self value as a...
You believe that?
You believe that?"We're all in this together."That's what they saywhen we return from their warsmissing minds and limbssince early slavery daysbeing shunnedfor being dark.Yeah,we're all in this,but not together.f
Voting fraud.
Voting fraud. Really?What amazes me is howwe will create a storyto affirm our needs."If those colored people vote, we will certainly lose, so stop them with all means we have in our arsenal.”“With all means in any way we can, in a land of free and pale folk"f
a Day in a Life.
Got up today at around the usual 10:30 am or later time. Had breakkie. Prepped the large pot for cucumber starts.Came back into the house. Sat here on the low kitchen bench and burst into tears, feeling lonely and alone. I am fine with being alone, but not lonely. Up...
At times
At timesI wanna’ be goneabsolutely MIAno knowingno todayyesterday or tomorrowno mindpast orfutureno fathermotherno yes nono,at times.f 1Khadijah Tracy
Unending Love.
Unending Love."I love youand want itto never end."Know this.Each breath is a new love.Love is closerthan you and me.To confirm this truth,all you have to dois stop breathingfor 10 minutes.f
Who breaks the law?
Who breaks the law?illegalsWho makes the law?Legals came here,killed the native buffalo food,chained a people’s body and mind,dropped atomic bombs on 2 large cities,and we still make the law.f
an Out Loud Prayer
an Out Loud PrayerHappy Mama’s Dayto all the Mamasthat now and thenbirthed this placewe call our homeand living reality.All the Mamasmean just that,Mama nature,Mama moon,Mama earth,you Mama,her Mama,his Mama,my Mama,Mama'sMama,Mama,amen.f
Mother’s Day
Mother's DayMother's Day draws a blankfor me. I didn't meet heruntil after returningfrom Vietnam.Shortly after thatshe had a strokeand our relatingwas short lived.I had one mothering-like experienceon a camping trip with a friend onAssateague Island in Maryland.We...
We have all heard
we have all heardlife is what youand I make it,if you believethere is a youand a me too,life is that, orlife is lifeis lifePeriod. f
Who got here first
Who got here firstMe or the Captain?Captain? you askYeahthe old guyin the backof the roomRoom? you askYeahit changes when I goeach timeGuy? you askYeahhe she it isthe word sourceOld? You askYeahold guy ishe her us allsince day oneBack? you askYeahstrokesyard stagemy...
At the Hickory Dickory Dock
At the Hickory Dickory Dock,Billy T. mouse jumps up eachof one hundred and two stepsof the Down Town Clock Tower.He has not been this highabove sea level ever before,and wants to see for himself,if life is better living higher up.Billy T. has fought fellow micefor the...
the End is near.
the End is near.We did a mouse storythe other day. Let'sbe an old reptile.Let's be the turtleall these eons later,about to hit the road.It's time. Don't you thinkhe she it has spokentoo long already.Since the cave/tree dazewe earth-ding a lingsstill do not hear.Many...
FB asks . . .
FB asksall us humans“What’s on your mind?”What’s on most minds these days?Transformation is inevitable,or “I am going to die.” Dying is a human construct.Change is what I see.Earth to earth.Open any media output device.Receive all that is offered, or not. I say...
Think about how far . . .
Think about how far we have come.Body parts are fashionably clothed.Sexual tools are used for pleasure.Most products are manufactured.Eating bananas in Nome, Alaska.Getting skeletal bone replaced.Being here now escapes us.We converse with more than an Ugg.We rape and...
SEER (2)
SEER (2)“Who are you SEER?”I am lawlessness outside the confines of your cranial domain.I am naught but multi-dimensional madness frowned upon by your scholars who themselves appear to be sane. I am the mustiness quietly nesting in the dankness of your mind cellar. I...
a ‘Brand New World Order’.
a 'Brand New World Order'.At the Hickory Dickory Dock,Billy T. mouse jumps up eachof one hundred and two stepsof the Down Town Clock Tower.He has not been this highabove sea level ever before,and wants to see for himself,if life is better living higher up.Billy T. has...
Try love for a change.
Try love for a change. Change Messengersdon't always appearas Dalai Lamas. Mr. Trump is such a Messenger.Many of us have chosen sides,for or against him. Fear and anger is at the deepest root.The media whips us into a frenzy,generating interests and profits. There...
Do not offer me . . .
Do not offer me . . . Do not offer meany false embrace,after your many yearsof shame and disgrace. New and shocking news.The black brown red poorare the ones not returningthrough the COVID-19 door. Our chosen U.S. leaders say,‘’We will discuss why this is so,but first...