Home Life prepared me.

Home Life prepared me.Home life prepared me for my time in Vietnam.Pain out thereso stay in here,safe and sound.The belt whistles.I hear the screamsand taste the blood.I am inside herewith my popcornand many friends.Please give it your all,until your arm tires,like it...

a Book Kid.

a Book Kid.We steal some cheap flashlights. I am under the tented cover at night,reading a thrilling, historical Russian novel. It is Sholokhov’s, ‘The Don Flows Home to the Sea’. The Reds and the Whites. His stories charge,flow are sad joy full...

Fill in the blanks.

Fill in the blanks.Mother, Austrian Polish Jewsent to Boston,all her family die in Auschwitz.Mother meets father, black and Native Indian, he says,living in Harlem.Mother and father have a child, me,Born in Sydenham Hospital,Bronx, New York.Father and mother...

House Guests

House Guests We kids,us boys and girls,didn’t have any guestscome over to hang with. Ma didn’t either.She was fearful of intruderssneaking into our 13th floorhousing project apartment. Dad had house guests over,same ones every few months,five or six in the living...

For years

For years I dreamed of pushingwith palms and soles against the coffin lid.Now I lay in the dark under the wool blanket,settling into a comfort, imagining the feelingsof a mother’s warmth. Being my own motherhas not been the same as wanting to have onethat holds and...

Normal

Normal I’m stooping scoopingants out of their homewhere grass meets path The good humor ice cream stickcatapults them into the airto drop and scurry crazily aboutI dig with a vengeancefaster and deeperto get to the bottom of things It’s early Sunday morning hot JulyNo...

Eliminating Carelessness

Eliminating Carelessness He lectures me on carelessness.I curse myself for dropping the plate.”Next time you won’t be so careless.” He mixes his potent solution,Castor Oil, Milk of Magnesiaand Castoria in a water glass. He’s an expert at making...

TV Time

TV Time We’re all sittingin the living roomwatching Gunsmoke. Ma turns to me and says,”Look at your toesThey are ugly”. We all laugh.I slide my feet backinto the U.S. Keds. 1982 f

the Balance

the Balance Be and know the dark firstto appreciate the lightmore In the carheading homeI thought ‘Dad brought joy into the housewhen he appeared with big bagsfull of beef, pork and chicken. We’d all gather aroundthe dining room table,6 kids and...

Relax, Smile and Blank them Out.

Relax, smile, and blank them out. (part 1)I did that a lot,smiled and looked relaxed,even when I wasn’t. The electrical cord whistlesbefore hitting my body,wherever it lands. I’m tied face downto the cots four corners,for some ridiculous reason and never...

Questions

How can we go up, while the movement outside the window is going down? Dad and Ma and us four(at the time) kids had lugged the heavy suitcases through the snow, to our new home. We pushed through the heavy green outside door. Ma pushed a gold button on the lobby wall....

Welcome Home

Welcome home a Preface to your welcome home.This time as a baby boy. So many homes you just don’t know about, but each return visit HERE is different. You may appear as a tree, apple, gold, nugget, fish, deranged nut job, dingle berry, hair follicle, rose...

Lessons

Lessons When I was an early teenwe lived on the 13th floorin the Lillian Wald houseson Avenue D in New York City. Ma sent me to the storefor Taystee or Wonder Bread.”Don’t forget the receipt.”OK ma. The elevators, both odd and even,didn’t work...

nuf said. me

The child in meis still methis many years later. That un-trusting frightened onestill hovers in the background,popping up when he whiffs fear. The first to test the waters.Is that a porpoise or a crocodile waiting just beneath the surface? An inner cast of...