Stories

Webster’s defines story as the telling of a happening or connected series of happenings, whether true or fictitious.

I have my own definition. A story is any recollection/telling, mental or verbal, of an event. Even true stories are ‘made up’ because they are never related in the ‘moment to moment’ experience. 5 people will relate an event from their own perspective.

My stories are all made up, just as yours are. We create, accept and choose to believe them as truth or not.

My stories follow.

Mother’s Day

Mother's DayMother's Day draws a blankfor me. I didn't meet heruntil after returningfrom Vietnam.Shortly after thatshe had a strokeand our relatingwas short lived.I had one mothering-like experienceon a camping trip with a friend onAssateague Island in Maryland.We...

Who got here first

Who got here firstMe or the Captain?Captain? you askYeahthe old guyin the backof the roomRoom? you askYeahit changes when I goeach timeGuy? you askYeahhe she it isthe word sourceOld? You askYeahold guy ishe her us allsince day oneBack? you askYeahstrokesyard stagemy...

At the Hickory Dickory Dock

At the Hickory Dickory Dock,Billy T. mouse jumps up eachof one hundred and two stepsof the Down Town Clock Tower.He has not been this highabove sea level ever before,and wants to see for himself,if life is better living higher up.Billy T. has fought fellow micefor the...

FB asks . . .

FB asksall us humans“What’s on your mind?”What’s on most minds these days?Transformation is inevitable,or “I am going to die.” Dying is a human construct.Change is what I see.Earth to earth.Open any media output device.Receive all that is offered, or not. I say...

Think about how far . . .

Think about how far we have come.Body parts are fashionably clothed.Sexual tools are used for pleasure.Most products are manufactured.Eating bananas in Nome, Alaska.Getting skeletal bone replaced.Being here now escapes us.We converse with more than an Ugg.We rape and...

SEER (2)

SEER (2)“Who are you SEER?”I am lawlessness outside the confines of your cranial domain.I am naught but multi-dimensional madness frowned upon by your scholars who themselves appear to be sane. I am the mustiness quietly nesting in the dankness of your mind cellar. I...

Do not offer me . . .

Do not offer me . . . Do not offer meany false embrace,after your many yearsof shame and disgrace. New and shocking news.The black brown red poorare the ones not returningthrough the COVID-19 door. Our chosen U.S. leaders say,‘’We will discuss why this is so,but first...

Combat Snippets (revised)

Combat Snippets (revised) With time on their handsthey wait in the jungle. We fire day and nightto insure they die there.*The silent womanholds her little childon outstretched arms. The convoy passes,refusing to accepther dead offering.*I’m on guard dutyhigh and...

Solitude and Presence?

SolitudeandPresence? I woke this morninglauding my selffor living hereat ease for24 years. Canine home mateshave also lived heresome of this time,with few humansever stopping by. I applaud humansthat appear to begenuinely loving,not just needing,in longer termrelating...

Rebirth, Change, Flow

ReBirth, Change, Flow Mother introducesforgotten realitiesto the new visitor. We can followin the stepsof thosebefore ORa very few of uschoose stepsinto a worldunknownto manyothers and a crowdwill followthe few.* Some human law saysno thing is createdor destroyed....

What now?

What now? What nowwas asked. Who's asking?Let's us see youor shut the door. Is seeingbelieving? I am seeingenough stuffto firmly stateseeing with eyesplaced in this headis easily a deception. The questiondoes remain. What now? f

Hear this.

Hear this. Protesterswant to openthe Shut Downon 18, April, 2020. "This really sucks.""I need some work.""No down time for me.""Men don't wear masks.""No baseball! This is fucked.""I need to be doing something.""You gonna pay my mortgage?""How can anyone look at...

Deep Sleep Sheep

Deep Sleep Sheep While we sheep deep-sleepin the digital green pastures, herders keep us well-stockedwith interests proven to keep us fast asleep. Raising sheep with an illusionof me mine I endless supply, chasing the greyhound rabbit,cart-donkeys after the carrot,...

Life beyond words.

Life beyond words The difficulty of attempting to share“the ever present NOW” using words,is “the ever present NOW” is far beyondthe one, two and three-dimensional worldswe have come to rely on as our ongoing reality. “There is so much more to know. “NO! Knowing more...

a Senior Moment

1) the PrelubeSaturday night came and we'd cram into the living room.Ma had the prime spot,centered on the opened Castro Convertible.Us 6 kids found places around the bed. It was TV night.We had an RCA Victor Console TV. This was in the late 50's.Our favorite programs...

One more could do it.

One more inhale could do it,end my life in this body,because of Covid-19.This is a challenging time,when my very next inhalecould be end of the line. This has always been the case,but now when my kid coughs,this truth is right in my face. Death is all ways at the...

They ask something of us.

They ask something of us. Who are They?Love and Light, so bright at night,in living dreams. Oh, what a sight,this love and light. The morning mannaand in all our meals, the living we loveand those we don't, our animal friendsand those we fear, The ones that enterand...

We North Americans . . .

We North Americans . . .are at our wits’ end. This is the first time our borders,the Atlantic and Pacific,Mexico and Canada,are not a defenseagainst invasion, in a very long time. Our aggression across the planetOur leaders wanting to own it allOur weapons and...

Praise Be

Praise Be Life and death depend,each upon the other. If earth was not enrichedwith what is now gone,there’d be no fuelfor us to live on. There’d be no you or me,or a baby makes three. So,celebrate coming AND gone.Stop fearing the one thingthat enables life to go on....

love, the nameless name

Love, the nameless nameLove is beyond knowingor thinking anythingwe come up with.Love is a tear sizeddrop on a shinyjungle leaf.Pandamic mandamic,call it what you will.Love is just love Love is beers jeers joy,a life where mindis a side dish. Beyond place,nameless...

Phantom Pain or not?

Phantom Pain or not? Prelude 1.I was recovering from a headshot deliveredby one of two taxi passengers,who held me up. Prelude 2.3 AM. Am heading home. Brooklyn.She steps from between parked cars.Says, "I am going to Brooklyn"."OK". He slides in beside her.Says he is...

Think, now Act.

Think about how far we have come. Body parts are fashionably clothedSexual tools are used for pleasureMost products are manufactured. Eating bananas in Nome, AlaskaGetting skeletal bone replacedBeing here now escapes us. We converse with more than an UGGWe rape and...

Start softly again.

Start softly again.Had a long week?Start softly again. So much loss this week,of income and movement. This week I feared death,mine, may come too soon.This week found me prayingfor family, friends and others.We are told to stay at home,or possibly cause people to...

all I Am.

Whisperedconversationswith spirit othersfill the hunger void. Come,join withspirit otherforest beings. foxbearhootersgrowlers, ivyfungilichenmosses, oakaldercherryspruce, bare feetrooted deepfinger branchesstretching skyward, skinspecked,burrowed,life feeding....

Praising

Praising praying,praiseno image,seen or not. praying,preyon no one,here or there. pray and preyappearin the mind,before acting. word prayers,now and thentick tok tickoriginal sin. praiselife deathpresence,no more. Bebeyondbeb . . . f

the Story.

the Story.the Story needs a frame. more than a momentmore than an instant the Stories keep us,poking around here as living marionetteswith separate minds coming and goingepoch to epoch. Look in the mirror.Do I see me? Yes? There is the oldest story,since humanity...

House Guests

House Guests We kids,us boys and girls,didn’t have any guestscome over to hang with. Ma didn’t either.She was fearful of intruderssneaking into our 13th floorhousing project apartment. Dad had house guests over,same ones every few months,five or six in the living...

“Do what you’re told.”

“Do what you’re told.” When they told me“Lock the doors and bar the windows”,I responded immediately. When he told me“Go to your room and take off your clothes”,they said “We’ll show him”, and we did. When she told me“I’m going to wash your mouth out with soap”,they...

Self Advice.

Self Advice. Be the bone,Take it all in.Let it all go.hollow. Let fear run my life,and be on the road,always running. Each breath is new.Each vision of you,not past or future,is here right now. A closeted heartand open mind,or vise-versa,will not seedcommunitywith...

For years

For years I dreamed of pushingwith palms and soles against the coffin lid.Now I lay in the dark under the wool blanket,settling into a comfort, imagining the feelingsof a mother’s warmth. Being my own motherhas not been the same as wanting to have onethat holds and...

a Shameful Apology

a Shameful Apology California has just apologizedfor imprisoning the Japanese. Descendants of the prisonersspeak their Mother tongue,know their cultural history,and visit their homeland. Where is the white American apologyto descendants of African slaves? When a...

mix it up.

TinkleTinkle Corn FlakeSprinkle*Crows,a murder, peck atthe crime scene*Nectar time babyCum and share it*take the load offto observe mind go loop de loop*Pebblesof love createripplesof life* f

a View of the Opposite Sex*

a View of the Opposite Sex*. Funny how we guys are.At the sight of raw meatcovered with bits of fabricor not, we may go crazy. We do what it takesto possess that raw meat.We lie beg cheat steal kill,and will pay huge sums for it. This raw meat needn't be close.Digital...

a Thought Full Knight

A Thought Full Knight A thought full knight rides a white horseto the mountain top in the yodeled Alps. He looks up at Rapunzel's shining hair and saysknot it to the bed postand I will climb right up and sayslet it down so all lifemay bathe in beauty and saysyour...

Change the Belief.

Change the belief. All these years past day one,I sit here reading old letters,pages and pages of cursive. Some from over 50 years pastVietnam Travel Marriage SuccessFriends Close Deaths, long forgotten. Old letters opening doors, closedso long ago, I sit here...

Bird Watchin’

Bird Watchin' One lazy summer dayI'm floating on the updraftaround timefor the barge to show up. Down left rests Jonathan Gullworn thin from flightsto far away placeswith strange sounding names. Closing from the rightrace three big fishmouths open wide for...

LOVE

Can I have it all,at the same time hiding out,wanting to bewith you? 'There's no wayyou can have it all.' 'Pick this or that,and make it work.' I Can have it allat the same time. LOVE f

all life.

all life. I concealmy entry doorsfrom folks bearing'Let's us all be friends'sincere and joyful hellos. Some old stories lingerafter time to let go,and their truthsare recreationsthat feel real, and here nowappear chainedto the illusion of time,written into law and...

I know shame,

I know shame, I know shame,for returninguninjured from Vietnam.Many othersdid not return in one piece.Now seethe big picture. War is warfrom cave and treedays we killed each other,for differencehas costs. You'd thinkafter all this timewe'd see the illusionof...

At Last.

At last. a loving goalsupports all of life,not only the few. a climate of angerpaints all I seebright RED, when the calming state,a cool relaxed BLUEbrings peace, fully.Let’s return to ‘At last.’,knowing anger’s felt,as are all colors. We get what is planted.What crop...

Color Full Words

Color Full Words Martin Luther King and Robert E. Leecelebrate the same national day,in more than one united state. When the first Europeans arrived,freedom of where I live endedfor those of us, already here. Being in tune with living life was burned shot starvedand...

Choice

Choice Democrats, Republicans and John Roberts.[From the Wall Street Journal]Chief Justice Roberts then administered an oath to senators, who will act as the jury. “Do you solemnly swear that in all things appertaining to the trial of the impeachment of Donald John...

the Black night.

the Black night. Black stiff man on the floor.Black child burns in the night.Black mother fetches doctor. Doctor drunk with love for mother.Mother burns in the night.Doctors diagnosis: Ebola Doctor runs out of house.House burns in the night.Doctor returns to his...

Normal

Normal I’m stooping scoopingants out of their homewhere grass meets path The good humor ice cream stickcatapults them into the airto drop and scurry crazily aboutI dig with a vengeancefaster and deeperto get to the bottom of things It’s early Sunday morning hot JulyNo...

“Look who’s going home.”

"Look who's going home." It's the Tet offensive 1968.We are firing day and night.All birds are knocked deadby the artillery concussion.The jungle is eerily silent. Jennings is a mess sergeantalways busting our asses.A chopper brings in the mealfried chicken, corn on...

Eliminating Carelessness

Eliminating Carelessness He lectures me on carelessness.I curse myself for dropping the plate."Next time you won't be so careless." He mixes his potent solution,Castor Oil, Milk of Magnesiaand Castoria in a water glass. He's an expert at making me to do things."Drink...

the Old Woman

the Old Woman I'm having the specialeggs potatoes toast coffee she comes inold ragged smelly I think, 'Why you gotta come hereand ruin my breakfast'? the waitress goes over, smiles,"What'll you have hun?" the old woman mumbles something.the waitress moves off to get...

TV Time

TV Time We're all sittingin the living roomwatching Gunsmoke. Ma turns to me and says,"Look at your toesThey are ugly". We all laugh.I slide my feet backinto the U.S. Keds. 1982 f

Mama

Mama You reach through the fogto grab a little handand lead me across the street. I see your sweet-smelling skin,Cashmere Bouquet fragrant and smooth,when passing the barely open bathroom door. I love when your behind movesside to side and the men's eyesfollow, like...

‘I have eyes for you.’

'I have eyes for you.' he rushes homefrom the night shiftending at 4 am. she is at the windowmassaging her bodybefore going to bed with the big Shepardup there beside herbefore lights out. he waits for herto appearon his day off. she comes outwith a white stickand her...

Conflict Snippets

Conflict Snippets. *With time on their hands,they wait in the jungle. We fire day and nightto insure they die there.*Memorial The wailing womanholds her little childon outstretched arms. The convoy passesrefusing to accepther dead offering.*Sittin' all alonein my...

Inside LOOKIN’ Out

Inside LOOKIN' Out two young people come my way.I want to smile, they pass,and I do.*a couple approacheshis hand around her waist.I stare at her jiggling breasts. They look away and pass.A bicyclist glides by.My eyes follow.*heyoung hispanicbronze brawn shethin...

More Snippets

More Snippets*False Gods Let us stopand give thanks for the know howto build bombs that maintain peacehere on earth. Amen.*Flies pass the timestuck to paper on the ceilingin the bathroom.*Marble Head proof of lifechiseledin cold stone.*Do somethingwith your life. Love...

the Magic of Word

the magic of Word. Word can be thought.Thought can be action.Action is thought come alive. Examine the many wordsthat shape your thoughtinto what/who/how I am. Live in before and next words,and the dense fog of illusionwill shape this life for life. Live in the be...

Solutions

Solutions. Think I heard this one on HuffPost. It takes place in Canada.The salmon run is drying up, so the Bald Eagles that feast on live salmon, will soon be starving. The solution to save the eagles may be to supply them with the animal by-products we give our poor...

the Balance

the Balance Be and know the dark firstto appreciate the lightmore In the carheading homeI thought 'Dad brought joy into the housewhen he appeared with big bagsfull of beef, pork and chicken. We'd all gather aroundthe dining room table,6 kids and Ma(sometimes), when...

5 Bananas

5 Bananas 1. What is oninfromtomind ? mineyoursoursthere's noreturnfromillusion. Isthere ? Whosays ? You ? 2. cold is relativeas all relatives are just that,relatives to a mindseeking to belongsome where other thanright herenow. 3. Triangles are the...

2 = 2 tales

2 = 2 tales Not long agoan old guy visiteda world full of emotionchurningchilling foot tappin 'finga' snappin'wise crackin' tear jerkin'heart breakin'emotion. Then what?Right nownot enough ? Stories are mind toolsfor past and futurerelating ships. So, this old guygot...

1 + 2 tales

1+2 tales Triangles are the strongestgeometrical figures we say. That is what we say. Right ?Do we agree ? Let's take a stepfurther. See the truss shapesclear as day spinning airbornefloating out to sea when Nature sendsa cyclone or hurricane. f

Look back and see

Switch channels.Remember tubes? run run runI run away a lot fear is a mighty motivator.ask those trapped by fire live fire175mm M107 Self -Propelled Gun.Look it up.See fire, smoke, kid bitsat the exploding end. 1968Tet OffensiveRobertMartin 51 years laterI forget to...

Inside – Out

Inside - Out Dreams & Truths(There's a wordto stumble over). I remember my dreams.I am a dream in a dream,speaking of dreams. I record my truth.My truth is one grain of sandin a Sahara storm. Not even. Truth is here, now gone.All else is a lie. Even Here-Nowis a...

Let’s talk . . .

Let's talk . . . Let's talk about people.All people. The more people we open to,the greater love flows. "Yeah but, I don't get anything back.Maybe just mostly pain and suffering." You plant a seed and geta pomegranate tree. The seed goes into the ground.You may not...

Choices, always choices.

Choices, always choices. OK, I cooked a breakfastof pancakes and eggsspent time with Kaiawashed the dishesmowed the lawn. None of that matters. The primary intention was to sit and write.Give the distractions any name I want.If I don't follow course, what next? See...

India Ventures, Part 2)

India Ventures, (Part 2) Here we are, back at it. The two sisters and I came up out of the train station, somewhere in Kolkata (formerly Calcutta). I had been staying in an area where many of the hostels were located. All the maimed beggars, wobbly cloth and cardboard...

India Ventures, (Part 1)

India Ventures, (Part 1) I lay down to rest last night.The next instant I was in the Bombay (currently Mumbai ) airport. Our plane from Athens had landed late and there was no traffic into the city. While waiting for morning, some of us travelers introduced ourselves....

I shout, “I’m coming.”

I shout, "I'M COMING. " The sun is hotter today.The stink is worse. coagulatedblood n gutsflies(where there used to be eyes)bits n piecesbody partscollectedin zippered bags "You got 10 minutes to chow down!" Lunch timeC rations, a plastic spoon, a P-38I trade...

What if I never . . .

What if I never . . . What if I neverhad worldly sight,only heard before wordswith each in-out breath,and pulsed as living light How can I everslam an angry doorbe mean and cruelsink or soar,when love is all there is What if I neverknew real love.Just you and me and...

Thoughts aplenty & more.

Thoughts aplenty & more. The dead stand among the living.A forest dies and rebirths anotherform energetic configuration. Matter is neithercreated nor destroyed.It just changes shape. A handgun will not grow on trees.The forest does support death,not the unnatural...

Companion Life

January 20th, 2019 Companion Life 'I follow my feet' is what I say.'Saying and doing' are different realities. I'm going to wake up early and go to the Health Club.(Next morning, 7:00 am, the alarm goes off) 'FUCK!'With eyes still closed I stretch to the clock,push...

Vietnam, Flower Power & Troubled Waters

January 22nd, 2019Vietnam, Flower Power & Opium 'Bridge Over Troubled Water', then 'Many Rivers To Cross' filled my head after Vietnam. Well, not directly after. Directly after, I decided to get a job in the newly established computer field. That's where the money...

Relax, Smile and Blank them Out.

Relax, smile, and blank them out. (part 1)I did that a lot,smiled and looked relaxed,even when I wasn't. The electrical cord whistlesbefore hitting my body,wherever it lands. I'm tied face downto the cots four corners,for some ridiculous reason and never let go a...

a Turning Point

a Turning Point. So, where to start,because there issuch a point. When mind is on recall track(talking about mine)this little bit would not be hereopening space for memory recall. OK,I just had the necessary recallto rehash a long ago storypulled from dusty old bins....

Pioneer,

Pioneer,a person who is among the first to exploreor settle a new country or area. Settler,a person who moves with a group of othersto live in a new country or area. The first pioneers to this land mass, arrived here(it is estimated)between 25,000 and 12,000 years...

Evolution at work.

Evolution at work. Before: Curtail the uncontrolled sale of guns. Then: Guns aren't the issue. It''s the shooters. and Then: We are trying to determine why they did it. Now: When it happened, our kids hid. Yippeee Don't take my word for this evolution.Listen closely...

Let go of what?

Let go of what? Break it down to the nitty-gritty,neutrons, protons and quarks. View life from that perspectiveand find black and white, them and us, the whole world of mineand yours, love and hating others. Those thoughts only live hereon surface layers of communing....